FadingFromSight

Slowly I heal, slowly things change. My heart is no longer breaking. My mind no longer aching. The tears aren't falling. Sleep is coming. Soon, everything will be ok. Slowly I grow, Slowly I become whole. Life is not over, no matter how much i fall. I'm getting over the pain, my scars remind me of the days. Soon, everything will be ok.

I look in her eyes, I see such a future. They reflect a blue as deep as the ocean, and capture her beautiful soul. I close my eyes, listening to her laugh. It resounds through my ears and makes me feel as alive as her. Her smile shines brighter than the sun. It makes her youthful innocence apparent, her tenderness contagious. If she only knew how tainted her future would become.   Just what those eyes would see. If she only knew the tones her laugh would adopt, the pain it would hide.   How dead she would want to be. If she only knew how dim her smile would fade, How callous and cold she would become; How her innocence

  Do you say her name and sometimes see my face?  At night, when you think of your love for her...  do i sometimes creep into place?  I made a mistake.  Did something i shouldn't.  But i felt your heart.  A saddened passion deep inside.  Somewhere, you know...  Somewhere we share a secret.  Once upon a time,  we were secret lovers.  Sharing pieces of our true souls.  No one could know, no one could understand.  You were my true prince.  And, hopefully, i was what you were looking for.  Now our fairytale has ended.  Reality is here.  But, the stars and the moon, they know.  They wait for us to find one ano

  As the day progresses I see everywhere we've been.  So many places and things have memories deeply embedded into their being.   I stand at the corner and watch the cars go by.  how many times have we done that?  this was "our corner", remember?  we'd sit and talk.  i even got grounded because i came home late after one of our chats here.     Then there's my front porch.  i remember the day after i met you.... you showed up on my porch.  i was schocked.  it made me smile.  you were so cute.  you talked me into walking to kroger with you.  i thought we really had something during the summer.   Inside my house are even more memories.  My c

I take a step back, out of your grasp. You asked for some time... you can have all you want. My head knows you are never going to be mine, my heart begs to hang on. I've replaced the lock, thrown out the key. Starving my heart of all it needs. I sit and watch. Watch while you justify all the lies. My heart givesup it's fight. Withers and dies. My head is triumphant. Lonely now it reigns. All because you  needed your precious time.

I stand here, looking you in the eye. Only one word forms in my mind. "Goodbye." It has to be this way. There's no more time. You don't need me anymore. You'll be fine. It's time to let you go. Be with the one you love most. I'm not doing this because i love you less. But because my love is true. Without me in the way, Your doubts can't stay. You'll be free of the questions. Free of the confusion. From now on, i'm right here in your heart. Our memories never to disappear. While you love her with all your heart, I'll find someone who needs me, too. I stand here, looking you in the eye. Only one word forms in my mind. "G

I sit here and wait. I wait for you to be like the rest. I wait for you to tell me we were wrong, tell me you're ashamed of everythign we felt, everything we did. Just say you regret it. I won't hold it against you. I won't  care. You'll just be like all the ones before. I've been down this raod, I've been the whore. Look at me. Say we're done. Just say you hate this. Because if you don't regret this, Why won't you look me in the eye? Why is it different by light of day? Now we're not hiding inside the ngiht. Now things can't be the same. You don't love me out here in the open, Only in the secrets of these few walls.

You would be 2 this month. I think about you, late at night. I stare at my baby pictures, wondering who you would have looked like, me, or him? Would you have my nose, or his? Would i have brought you home in pink or blue? Either way, girl or boy, you're still mommy's little angel. You've watched over me. Saved my life. I'm sorry you couldn't do the same for your daddy. Though i miss you, and wish to see your face, i've used these years to grow and change. Someday i'll be ready. I'll be a good mom, and you'll have sent me someone to be a good dad, too. Because, you're mommy's little angel, and you're watching over me.

Standing on that hill, i realized it was a dream come true. surrounded by lights, wrapped in your arms. i couldn't help but smile. i never knew you were capable of such romance. i never knew i was capable of being swept away. you did it. you achieved the impossible. made my heart melt from its frigid state. if even just  a bit. all on that midnight walk beneath the sky. it makes me smile thinking now. knowing it will always be something quietly on my mind.

The winds of change have come and gone. Now we're left. Two different people, Two different hearts. The passion has faded from his eyes. I bite my lip in contemplation. We've pushed until the distance is too great. I've become his past, no longer present. That girl he did, back when he couldn't find something more. I'm just a trace of a bite mark on his shoulder. He's nothing more than a faded scent between my sheets. The winds of change will never stop. The winds of change have torn us apart. This is the way it will all truly end.